Henrikh Mkhitaryan To Me

There were many individuals inspired me in many ways, leading me to perform certain actions/ take part in some activities, and even shape my personality. They can be an anime character, a successful individual or simply a programmer who is writing his/her design notes. Recently, I have read an article in The Player Tribune, featuring Henrikh Mkhitaryan, a Manchester United midfielder and Armenia captain. (http://www.theplayerstribune.com/henrikh-mkhitaryan-manchester-united-zidane-kaka-and-hamlet/) The article is an inspiring one, I can totally related it and he has become another one who I would like to look into.

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Credits to sky sports

Henrikh Mkhitaryan, who was the man of the match versus West Ham yesterday, provided 2 vital assist for Manchester United, has his name soared to the sky. He is a good footballer, no one can doubt that, but what I never know is he is also a good storyteller. He told an amazing story, a story which he lost his dad, and how he managed to get to the team by learning a different language every time, and most importantly, the phrase that I liked the most :”When you walk onto the pitch at Old Trafford, it is not just a pitch, it is a stage.” , no wonder Old Trafford is also known as theatre of dreams.

I liked the part that he had to learned many languages, as a Malaysian myself, we have to learn at least 3 languages: Malay, English and Chinese (mother tongue). The talking about the prejudice was also a nice catch, there are always stupid who criticise you, without knowing what you got. But those are not the things that I want to talk about, but his form.

He had a bad start in the Manchester Derby, if people were going to judge him based solely on that match, he may has lost his stage long time ago. Fortunately, he has Jose Mourinho who knows what type of player he can be, as you can see how he shines yesterday.

As a mere human being, there is no way my life story is better than Henrikh’s , I am a normal person and do not have a special background. As I said, what I found similar between me and Henrikh is our form and how long it takes to ready. We all know Henrikh is a great player, so we all agree to wait for him to blossom. Sadly it is not the case in my community. Most of them expect you to make an instant success, even you have zero experience with it. Sometimes you think you are capable of doing this, but with being unfamiliar, people judge you as a failure instantly. I’m a very logical person, whenever I am introduced to a new stuff, most of the time I can’t find the instruction clear and getting doubted. But once I know exactly how it is going, I can perform very well in an extent. Of course, reaching Mikhi’s level is too away for me, and I’m not compare myself to Mikhi’s level. I’m still a common people, a common people should just behave well and work hard to be successful.

I want to become good, but I lack all the training in my youth, I lack all the dedication and commitment to be success, all I have done is let my logical mind works out for me, with some blessing by the god. I don’t know what i am heading to now, Let’s see and let the voyage begin.

Disclaimer: I wrote this on a day after Manchester United’s victory over West ham with the score 4-1 and the Henrikh got the man of the match. Henrikh continues his impressing run and has becomed a regular since then. Well done Henrikh! I wish all the best to you and hopefully Manchester United can continue their consecutive victories! Let’s back to the old time! #GGMU

My opinion toward stereotyping and prejudice

If you ever get a big reaction from me over a prejudice you just made, it’s not because i try to make excuse, cover it with lies, defame you back or anything. It’s because I can tell that your prejudice is a very wrong one, not even come close.
Well… you may ask, if it is a wrong one, why not you explain?
Explaination is good, I like explaination. However, you don’t always get a chance to.
Things often get like this, one people make a statement based on their prejudice over a certain action or word you made, and defame you by telling example of how OTHER PEOPLE THEY MET BEFORE HAVE DONE, whether intention or not. When you try to explain, he smiles and stops you “no need to explain, we all understand”. And blah blah blah
NO! YOU CLEARLY DON’T!
( Or maybe yes, but with intention of defaming someone. )
I understand there is probability that the type of people he described may have similar traits with me, and stopping me may save several seconds from your life. Indeed, chances are, but few, or maybe high, but surely not me.
I’m very open, I give only reason, never excuse, jokes aside though.

I admit myself as a merely 19-year-old human being, may don’t have “high experience” , “see every kind of people” or “living in the world long enough to see the truth of this world”. But certainly not you too, who see the world one or two years ahead of me, or maybe several days. Even a 4-50 years old people is never a person that have seen the world long enough to get to know every kind of people.

What I try to tell is, making prejudice without justification is totally wrong, especially you shout out your prejudice as justice. We don’t see “every kinds of people” so we never know. By living 1 or 2 years longer than me or working experience may made you faced more type of people, but never all. You don’t even know what type of people i faced before either, and i can bet most of you never faced some type of person i made , I may never met type of person you faced either.

By saying your prejudice is a wrong one, it itself is a prejudice. How come i can be so sure? It’s because you aren’t the only one who made that. So far, only one person knows what type of person i belong to, not belong, maybe comes very close. I guess he has met my type of people in the past, for me, i never come across one yet, a person who shared a similar idea with me. No wonder he is such a successful individual, sadly, i never like the business world in the first place.

This world is more than just black and white. You may easily identify the black and the white, how about the gray? Even you do, have you seen a black dot in the white? White dot in the black? Black and white dot in the gray? Can you list out all type of personality? I bet you don’t, neither me. So.. stop stereotyping. Don’t let your ego gets you, don’t let your little achievement get over your head. By participating something people don’t makes you a better person, not the smartest human in the world. Don’t ever think others are idiot, never take silence as agreement, never judge based on the cover. Im never the type that stating the grape is sour because i can’t take it, im more of the type who state the grape is sour after i get it. Im not going to tell after i tasted it because everyone has their different taste.

Everyone has their own common sense. Somebody has their common sense in academic, that’s why scoring well in academic is pretty common for them. Somebody has their common sense in drawing, so drawing is just an ease. Never judge someone based on just one criteria. You have something to be proud of, don’t just defame the others because you can’t get the grapes, because you never know, sometimes you simply ranked second best against someone in every field. Always expect the unexpected.

Disclaimer: i don’t have a specific target to mention in this post, the reason i used “he” or “you” here was simply i need a target to convey. Sorry for my poor grammar.

強くなりたい

I always want to be someone dependable,
someone who can always says “you can always depend on me”
I know my limit in socializing, as I can hardly perform well due to several circumstances, my social network hardly expands.
social aside, maybe I can do something else.
sadly, in term of physical, my physical power is weak.
in term of wealthiness, I poor like shit
My bad at socializing made this even worse.
in term of fighting, there is nothing can be done in real life.
so i think at least I can be dependable in academic,
but I never a discipline person,
I’m lazy like hell, yes, everyone is lazy but you never know the degree of my laziness.
I’m very concern about my academic but im still lazy like hell.
Laziness is one thing but concern and still lazy is a big thing.
With my great laziness, I failed many times.
By failing, I don’t mean that Im fail in exam, but fail to be someone dependable. Even now, Im never a person anyone can count on yet.
Because of this, I broke a lot of promise that made between myself, I owed someone a big apology. I being useless for all the time.
 
Yes, Discipline can be trained. There are 2 things that can cure my laziness. Firstly, motivation. Ya, motivation sucks and never last long, it lasts until i open my book and soon the motivation is all gone. Secondly, responsibility. Surprisingly, under responsibility I can never rest for even a second, it made my fking discipline for myself. The bigger the responsibility, the better I am. Maybe, if i can’t be someone dependable, maybe I can be someone responsible…. still…i owed someone a big apology
 
Speaking about socialising, Im sucks not because I lack any social skill. I simply don’t have a brave heart and tired of arguing with senseless people. It’s always an headache when arguing with someone senseless, but sadly 80% of people are…well, maybe I should say it that way… 90 % of people can make sense in 80% of things but not the 20% else. With means they can makes sense 80% of time, but not the remaining. I’m tired, because I always want to spend 15 minutes for explaining what you’re going to say and 30 minutes to tell you everything in one shot. But senseless people never takes that, they will just IGNORE my argument and continue their SENSELESS statement. I can’t summarise them either, because all the detail are important. If i missed any i guarantee they will use that hole to continue their statement. So most of the times I will just getting tired and let it pass…
 
those speaking is about matter of discussing, there are occasion that I made very nice people. But I always cannot initialise the conversation nor open my mouth, I always think that I am breaking the harmony even though I always think I should just open my f***king mouth. sorry for that.
 
I just want to be strong.
強くなりたい。
 
Disclaimer: This post has nothing to do with recent events (really). I simply want to express out things in my mind before I start my journey.
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Photo credits: Love Live Sunshine!

My sensei

I would like to talk about my life sensei (aka teacher) today. Teacher is the reason I am what I am, without them, I couldn’t achieve what I have right now (though I have achieve nothing yet). Throughout my life, I have met many really inspirational person and events, they have given me many valuable lessons, and this post is made entirely to thank each of them.

The reason that I like anime so much isn’t because of some hentai content that many people enjoyed, but anime is my lecturer, and it is not exaggerate to say that 80% of my thought (thinking process), personality, attitude are formed from anime. This is also the reason that I often get bored in moral, critical thinking  or whatsoever class. it is because I already know it all along, by putting in another way round really make me sick.Talk about psychology, I’m not a psychology student but I think I have the ability to feel/guess how one’s feels.This skill is also achieved through anime. I was sometime called “psycho” when playing board games, because of my ability on able to predict opponent’s next move.I can’t be easily get enraged by one’s action, because I don’t judge people blindly, instead, I think of any possible reason for their action, throughout my experience and prediction, and also assumption that that guy is actually an idiot. I’m open-minded, I am open to receive all the opinion/suggestion against/to me, and my original idea might even get overwrite if  I personally think that your suggestion actually is better than mine, in every aspect. (By that say, I really think and consider a lot about one’s suggestion, some people likes to tell they are open-minded and ready to accept opinion/criticism, but in fact they are not. They are not listening to your idea but constantly tell you how great he/he is. I’m not, and when I say that “if your idea is better”, I really compare it with my idea. When I say my idea is better, you may think that I have the superiority toward my idea, but IT IS WRONG too. I can actually write an essay for you talking about why mine is better.

Back to topic, anime really made me what I am. Fairy Tail and Inazuma Eleven taught me not to give up easily. Some animes taught me the needs to be cruel. Most importantly, many animes enable me to think critically. I thought about humanity when I was watching Attack on Titan, changed my worldview everytime I watch a new anime. I think precisely on how a human being’s feeling by observing anime characters, I thought over how to be success, and most of them were proved right after founding them actually written in some lectures. I get my personality change through the anime too. The reason I want to keep my hair long is also thanks to anime, this is also the reason I have a hard time express it to anyone because they have high chances of not getting it. During my primary school times, I was educated that guy must have short hair, and I was actually agreed to that. The scenario changed when I met Aphrodite from Inazuma Eleven. His presence changed my mindset, I actually like him and want to be like him! Having beauty and strength at the same time is amazing, at least it was what I thought last time. Anime not only changed my preference about appearance, but also personality. I was told to be normal and been trying to be normal all the time, I never challenged my limit until I met anime. I thought people with having high status was actually an amazing person last time, but thanks to anime, I realised the ugly side of status and fame, I started to develop myself since then.

These are all the reason I hate people’s saying that anime is useless. Anime is something I can never forget about.

Besides anime, The experience of working I have also given me many important life lesson. After several months on doing something boring and unbeneficial, I realised that being loyal is good, but loyal to your heart is much better. I will not try something that I dislike ever again, just because others say yes, I might not following them. I am fortunate to have a chance to involve in business sales, I am fortunate to be a part of Coway. I learned about the bank issues, card installment, purchase order,having my first customer and many little things. I am fortunate to join an ambitious company like Coway, I even met a really successful businessman and also the only person I met so far who really understand me. Although He taught me for only 4 days, but the things I have learned may be much higher than what I learned throughout my life. He told me that I will be the best, and willing to give me assistance if I meet any trouble in the future.Thankyou FJ Lee, I wish you still remember me 🙂 I am sorry that I failed to become what you think I will, I quitted Coway because I am not able to change myself to follow customer’s need, not in term of quality/market needs, but their stereotyping, I am not able to fit in their stereotyping, I don’t want to change myself just because of them, I want to become what I am.

Of course I am learning something through formal lesson. I can’t recall anyone from primary school times except my nephew. But teacher Lim Boon Leong made me like physics, before that, I thought physics was boring mechanical stuff…In foundation,Ms Ling’s passion in math made my fired up until I getting down again recently… Dr. Kheng is an interesting one, he always like to share whatever he know. Lecturer/professor like this is the most respectable 🙂

They are all my sensei. Insulting anime could mean insulting my professor, I don’t mind to kick your ass for that 🙂 I think that’s all for today, it may be a very boring post as I have been desperately to end this post because I have a lab assessment tomorrow. I can talk about it continuously for many days but I don’t want to waste my time on talking instead of doing.